Ohana means family, family means nobody gets left behind... or forgotten

OMG guys!!!
You didn't forget me did you?
its been years!
You lost weight! A new haircut? you look good!

I must apologise for my absence it was you it was me. Honest. Since I last blogged I have moved to the beautiful Yamba and I must admit ... its pretty awesome. Freaking freezing at the moment ( comparatively) but still cold for me.

I have also rearranged my business which has been long and painful but is coming together finally!!!
I have rebooted my Etsy store and really got things happening, next step... Make a profit
I would really need to stop buying fabric to do that.
All my boys are at school now so most days are just me and the dog. He's a good listener.

So much to catch up on.
I am getting over excited about all the awesome movies that are coming out in the next year... Who's with me? What are you most excited to see? DO you have a cinema where you live. Dont laugh that is a valid question. In Yamba we do YAY. Deadpool, Captain America 3, Antman, The suicide Squad... the list goes on.

I have fallen head over heels for Deadpool. Although trying to find the comics to read is a tough task not even my dear Book Depository can help me. I think unless I source a good online comic book store I might have to wait till Supanova.

I am currently trying to decide if I am going to have a stall again this year at Supanova Brisbane. Accommodation price plays a big role in the decision. But it is an awesome time and great for Christmas shopping :) I mean selling lots of stuff and making some money... yesss.

Over on my Facebook page ( www.facebook.com/geekree ) I am holding a big fun Challenge/ adventure/ type thing for some great prizes. Go sign up. Its gonna be awesome.

Final thing... we now have an instagram too. Yes I have been busy.
https://instagram.com/geekree not sure the link will work but if not just search "geekree" and I should pop up in a plethora of infinity scarves.

till next week. Fist bump.... fa la la la lala la.

Aint no party like a time lord party....

SO... this is awkward. Its ummm been a while.
The thing is lame as it may sound.. I have been busy. Honest. life has kinda gotten in the way of the things I want to do. In a good way. Business is going well although I expect a bit of a lull now christmas is over and people are back to being poor. My main issue at the moment is finding markets to do with customers that dont look at me like Im a freak. Maybe freak is too harsh, odd yes thats the word. I dont do the pretty little things that make people go. Awwww. I do the different stuff for those special folk who "get it".


Christmas was good. We had several. One with my family and one with Lukes then another with some of my beautiful cousins ( they are the best of people) then our quiet but enjoyable christmas day at home. I have been working on expanding what I make and challenging myself more. I am hoping to do a "masterclass" of sorts with my mother in law to learn how to use some of the patterns I have.

I have discovered I really enjoy creating things and had quite a bit of trouble having some down time over Christmas day. I honestly kept thinking " I should be doing something!" but eventually I got in to the swing of it and even had my first nanna nap in years.
I have embraced etsy. I really like it and find it really easy to use. The fees are a bit intense along with Paypal fees it really starts to take a chunk out of your profit but I dont really understand the handmade australian one and I really need to sit and have a good look.

We went and saw the Hobbit the other day. LOVE IT. and I must confess I am really digging Thorin. But my real love is for Bofur...

I am not sure what that says about me... and I am not sure I care.


In other news I am well and truely involved in Doctor Who at the moment, unfortunately I am in the Martha stage ... stupid skank. If she tries one more thing on the Doctor I am going to stab her in the face.

I am mainly happy with life... which is nice for a change. The boys are on holidays and we have been doing lots of things together. That said I am about to take them grocery shopping so the situation could change before the day is out.

Happy New Year to you all. Stay Safe

I was the second shooter on the grassy knoll....

I have a confession to make ... and funny thing it feels like I should confess even though it feels great.
I am just going to come out and say it.
I withdrew from Uni
phew... that's a load off let me tell you.
I think its a good thing. I had an Epiphany yesterday while on the phone to the student adviser... I don't think the phone call went quite how she had planned.lol Basically I honestly couldn't tell her what I wanted from a degree or even what I wanted a degree in. I was hating my unit I had picked and was overloading on stress. I sat down and thought about why I was doing it. first reason ... My husband felt I needed something to do. This was said a while ago and when I enrolled I really did need something to do. This is no longer the case I went and found several things to do... things that I really enjoy. And the second reason... Expectations. Or more accurately the thoughts and expectations I project on to people. What I think they expect from me and what they actually do are two different things. I have a lot of family that are very smart. They excel at everything the do. They are academics and they are wonderful. I would love to be like them. That said they enjoy what they have chosen to make careers out of. They enjoy things that to be honest I don't. I also think maybe I don't have worth if I don't have a degree.... isn't that silly. WHO CARES! well obviously people that hire people with degrees and training care. A degree wont help me do what I want to do when my children grow older and no longer wish to spend time with me.
In short I realised that my reasons for starting uni were pretty shit.
SO I stopped. I have to change the way I think of it though... I failed pops up a bit but then the little voice that is often squished in the corner says... Life is to short to not love what you do.

Welcome back Kotter...

Hi Welcome back... Sorry I have been away. I have been having a major case of the "overwhelms" where so much needs to be done or is coming up that your brains stops. Closes up shop and says screw this for a joke. I am trying to find a balance in my life without guilt. Ah guilt my old friend I know you so well.... I am attempting not to half arse everything and remain able to put as much into my Family and Uni and business as they deserve. I took the weekend off and now I am just trying to get back into things. Its hard to keep going. For some time out I have been on Pinterest. It is a favourite of mine at the moment.. it gets me through. It makes me laugh

Shhh were hunting wabbits

Sorry I have been uber quiet recently. I think my brain imploded from over work... or from the build up to being over worked which can be just as bad... It turns out that everything I was panicked about kinda just went smoothly, the uni work I was procrastinating turned out to be actually be enjoyable and I am looking forward to creating the ideas I have come up with for "Make 5 things out of a bucket" assignment. I got through a fair bit of crafty stuff too for the page ( Geek-r-ee in case you haven't read my blog before, blatant self promotion) Turns out that I can be really productive when I am avoiding doing something specific. I am already preparing stock for Christmas and the Little birdy markets that are on at the end of the month in Echuca. I am trying to expand what we stock which is fun because I don't really like making the same thing allllll the time I like to do things I am in the mood for. 
I have even done half the Christmas shopping for my boys... and I have plans for me and for Hubby. I have bits of four nieces presents sorted ( some bought, some handmade) and another niece all done. Luke's nephew is a bit harder because I don't really know him but I am sure the boys will help.
I am desperate to get my hands on one of these..

.http://toysnbricks.com/lego-advent-calendar-2012-star-wars-now-available/

feel free to post it to me. Yes I will accept presents from strangers.....

OOOOOUUUCHHHHHHHHH! and hurl

SO I had my first personal training session this morning. Gee that was fun ( you can read sarcasm right) I actually had to use all my will power to not vomit by the end and to walk to the car and drive home. I felt the way I feel when I have had my back realigned. Not good and then I had to get up the stairs when I got home... I had a shower and got into bed for an hour cuddled up to my son and puppy. I felt GOD DAMN AWFUL! that said I had a Gatorade, and a stretch after lying down and felt great, bit sore but more an expected sore than what I felt this morning. Now this I have figure was either because of the cold wind and ear ache from said wind, or my rotator cuffs in my shoulders shouldn't have been pushed that had because they are dumb. It was really weird.

I am feeling really good at the moment. Getting more organised with routines for me and the children, only a couple more days till the 20 day organising challenge starts and I am keen and ready to go.

“I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles.”
― Audrey Hepburn

I hit a really bad low a couple of days ago. I lashed out at everyone, I cried and I gave serious thought to not going home but sleeping in the car. My husband made everything better and we had a great talk about what has been going on, about the situation we have put ourselves in and how we are going to cope with it. I am feeling better about things and the direction my life is taking. Turns out I am not as useless as I think I am.

FACT: no-one can say anything to me that I haven't said or worse to myself.

My Husband doesn't understand how this works, but being a loving husband told me that I haven't wasted my life nor have I achieved nothing. My three boys are proof enough of that. He went on to list or the thing I have done in my life and how I am lucky to have everything I do have.  I love my life but I will no longer be staying at home all the time. I am having a Bodyshop party at my house, I have been helping out at the school. I will even be skating at school for the kindergarten kids.

I really really want to be able to run this fun run with my cousin this year without embarrassing her or holding her back. I want to look nice at my other cousins wedding. I want my house to run smoothly and my children to not be late for school.

Getting it Done. BOOM! owing The List

This is going to sound pathetic but... What a great day for washing. The weather is perfect a breeze and if you can believe it SUN!!!! I know right. I am feeling pretty good today. Getting things done. I have finished the Star Wars soft book.... looks fabulous just quietly. several loads of washing on the line. Sheets changed. Prep work done for the "20 Days to Organise & Clean your home Challenge" but may have spent more than I had planned on a new mop and bucket. That said they are pretty good.... just don't tell my husband OK. Section one of my first Uni assignment is done, The Mind Map. Now I need to figure out what to do with a bucket... yes a bucket.

 

10 uses for a bucket on paper.. then it needs to be narrowed down to 5 and actually created. I think I am going to enlist my children for this one. Their imaginations are thriving mine seems to be broken...

I am also attempting to branch out so to speak. I am hosting a Body shop party.. yes I do party plan I actually really enjoy it most of the time but I have had a bit of trouble getting started in this town. SO in the interest of making some sales and meeting some people (which I really should do seeing as I have lived here for a year)  I am having a party in my house. I hadn't done that before because my husband believes his house is where he can hide from the world, he has accepted the fact though that I cant live without people I am surprisingly enough a people person. Hopefully people show up. That's the trouble with putting yourself out there. There is a very big chance of rejection. That said You never never know if you never never go.

Wish me luck.