I was the second shooter on the grassy knoll....

I have a confession to make ... and funny thing it feels like I should confess even though it feels great.
I am just going to come out and say it.
I withdrew from Uni
phew... that's a load off let me tell you.
I think its a good thing. I had an Epiphany yesterday while on the phone to the student adviser... I don't think the phone call went quite how she had planned.lol Basically I honestly couldn't tell her what I wanted from a degree or even what I wanted a degree in. I was hating my unit I had picked and was overloading on stress. I sat down and thought about why I was doing it. first reason ... My husband felt I needed something to do. This was said a while ago and when I enrolled I really did need something to do. This is no longer the case I went and found several things to do... things that I really enjoy. And the second reason... Expectations. Or more accurately the thoughts and expectations I project on to people. What I think they expect from me and what they actually do are two different things. I have a lot of family that are very smart. They excel at everything the do. They are academics and they are wonderful. I would love to be like them. That said they enjoy what they have chosen to make careers out of. They enjoy things that to be honest I don't. I also think maybe I don't have worth if I don't have a degree.... isn't that silly. WHO CARES! well obviously people that hire people with degrees and training care. A degree wont help me do what I want to do when my children grow older and no longer wish to spend time with me.
In short I realised that my reasons for starting uni were pretty shit.
SO I stopped. I have to change the way I think of it though... I failed pops up a bit but then the little voice that is often squished in the corner says... Life is to short to not love what you do.

Welcome back Kotter...

Hi Welcome back... Sorry I have been away. I have been having a major case of the "overwhelms" where so much needs to be done or is coming up that your brains stops. Closes up shop and says screw this for a joke. I am trying to find a balance in my life without guilt. Ah guilt my old friend I know you so well.... I am attempting not to half arse everything and remain able to put as much into my Family and Uni and business as they deserve. I took the weekend off and now I am just trying to get back into things. Its hard to keep going. For some time out I have been on Pinterest. It is a favourite of mine at the moment.. it gets me through. It makes me laugh

Shhh were hunting wabbits

Sorry I have been uber quiet recently. I think my brain imploded from over work... or from the build up to being over worked which can be just as bad... It turns out that everything I was panicked about kinda just went smoothly, the uni work I was procrastinating turned out to be actually be enjoyable and I am looking forward to creating the ideas I have come up with for "Make 5 things out of a bucket" assignment. I got through a fair bit of crafty stuff too for the page ( Geek-r-ee in case you haven't read my blog before, blatant self promotion) Turns out that I can be really productive when I am avoiding doing something specific. I am already preparing stock for Christmas and the Little birdy markets that are on at the end of the month in Echuca. I am trying to expand what we stock which is fun because I don't really like making the same thing allllll the time I like to do things I am in the mood for. 
I have even done half the Christmas shopping for my boys... and I have plans for me and for Hubby. I have bits of four nieces presents sorted ( some bought, some handmade) and another niece all done. Luke's nephew is a bit harder because I don't really know him but I am sure the boys will help.
I am desperate to get my hands on one of these..

.http://toysnbricks.com/lego-advent-calendar-2012-star-wars-now-available/

feel free to post it to me. Yes I will accept presents from strangers.....